ok this post is wriitten by DARYL SEE YU XIANG! :D :D :D

school is starting in like, 3 MORE DAYS OMGOSH!

but no! we are so gonna have a great attitude in facing everyday, including TODAY! :D
i have been living with emotions, when anger comes, jealousy comes, sadness comes, joy comes, i just live by it and it is certainly NOT GOOD. i remember once when i was jealous, i was very angry, self-condemned and even drop tears! so it really swing me around like i keep RUNNING WILD!

and yesterday, it was a very emo day for me. i felt totally abandoned, jealous like there is no one for me. but God works in miraculous ways! i was smsing cheryl, jordan, but it took a loooong time for them to reply(they were busy!) and i felt like, wah, no one cares about me. but no, God is here! its just that i dun recognise him in time, and i blame the whole world, but not myself.
and i finally figured out, its because God wants me to seek Him first. God wants me to recognise that He is actually here for me! and that i dont need to fear, feel insecure and jealous. my sister had a loong time with me during sleeping time, and she was really very nice(cos if we were to be found out talking, we will DIE!), she just really explained that i should never to let this emotions to waver me. that i should just surrender all to God, knowing that He will be here to carry my burden.
She said that i shouldnt feel excluded, but i should make myself included. that i have been really doing great. and i should know how to deal with this things. she just said that i shouldnt just keep expect, expect and expect more of myself, and that i should listen to Cheryl, that is to enjoy christianity.
she even shared that she had been in church for 3years, not even a TL or CGL, but she isnt sad that she didnt rise up so high, cos she knows that God has a big plan for her. wow. i must have this kind of trust and reliance on God which i very very lack.
afterwards, she just asked me how i felt, i kept silent throughout, i was sad, at myself, for so not trusting God.

God has been telling me this few days "have a little more faith in me"
yet, i was too stubborn to listen. like what Dominic had said that time. the worst thing to know is that God shut His mouth and dont talk to us anymore.

i will listen. and today, the greatest thing God revealed to me. James 3:16 "For where envy and self-seeking exist, confusion and every evil thing are there."
i was just randomly flipping the bible, and i saw this. wow, God is amazing.

we must read his word today!
p.s. my sister told me"if you wanna grow in wisdom, read His word! expect to receive something from God everytime you do quiet time!" :D

i am amazed.

- Daryl